Happy Birthday to Me!

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I recently celebrated my 41st birthday, while at dinner my husband and I were discussing how I felt turning 41, I felt rather peaceful. Â In year's past, my birthday represented an annual self-analyzation which usually resulted in me pointing out more negative flaws then positive ones. Â Somewhere in life, I had picked up the belief that each year correlated directly with a life accomplishment and if that wasn't met you were a failure. Â Mid-twenties have a nice car, the late twenties established a career, the early thirties own a home, Â and of course be on the early retirement track.
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This year it was all different, I was so calm and peaceful about it, in fact, I almost forgot it was coming up. Â I feel it is because I have finally found peace with me. Â I am not perfect and that is okay - none of us are. Â I stopped beating myself up with all the should have - could have - what was I thinking negative self-talk. Â I have made peace with God. Â I am finally stepping into the joy of being married {we are enjoying a year and seven months}. Â I am a continual work in progress, moving in a forward direction, improving almost daily. Â The days I don't improve I extend myself grace.
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It has taken me a long time to come to this peace with my life, with aging, as can be expected it was a lot of years of letting garbage fill my head. Â If you happen to be like the old me, spending every birthday noting all "failures" instead of being in the moment and celebrating YOU, please stop. Â Make the list of all your blessings, the amazing people you share life with, and what you are grateful for. Â If you don't know your life purpose yet ask God to show you. Â I am not 100% sure of my purpose or how it is to all unfold, I do know I am moving in the right direction. Â Now I look forward to continual improvement and birthdays!
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He gives us grace so we can give ourselves grace.
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Nicole Lynn
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